the present

I have not felt this way in a long time.

I realize now (as hindsight is 20-20) how unhappy I had been during the last half of my relationship with B. How I really did deserve more and better. That my requests and pleadings should have been respected.

I miss him, still. I am accepting, however, that he may very well be gone forever.
I am also realizing that my love for him has evolved into a more platonic love.

I am so happy now. I know it won't last, but my gosh, I loved every minute of my date--yes, my date!--yesterday. We hung out for five hours, and then he called me in the evening and talked for nearly two hours.

I will just enjoy the present.

A lot.